when it comes to family matters, i am a bit sensitive about things... i am overly protective of my brothers (and at the same time I feel like I have the power to confront them together with insensitive words)... i am also overly protective of my younger cousins -- ken and kolai... ever since aunt died, i have been hoping and praying every day that I could give them the kind of love their mom has given me... but of course, I am me, and more of a cousin or friend rather than a mom. And more immature rather than being objective and empathizing... ok. late last night i texted manoy asking him some family-related matter... then i guess, i never gave him a chance to explain... hmmmm... i feel like communication is superbly important but... but i opted to be selective... as for ken and kolai... i wish i could protect you guys (always)... i wi sh i could be with you always when you need someone to be just there... maybe, you are no longer the kids that i have in mind... and i guess i need...