weary wary

i am totally freaking out deep inside!  

i feel like i am back under the scrutiny of some evil teachers/professors and treacherous  whatever mates! am i just being pessimistic?! the thing is i wanted this to work out -- the plan itself... i mean, it can lead this country somewhere even if i dread the presidency that much!

i just have to be positive i guess! i am still learning new things and besides i am new here! i mean, two days of working does not necessarily mean getting things done and achieving one's KRAs right away! maybe, just maybe, i am nahihiya mainly because i still don't know where will this lead me... i mean the project...

i will be fine... i know i will be!